Today I want to kick things off by sharing my story. I’m going to be opening up about my past struggles and what lead me down this path in search of health and happiness. I want to share with you how I healed my body, mind and spirit and talk about why I am so passionate and excited about
supporting you on your very own journey!
Before I began on my path to wellness my physical, mental and spiritual health was on a serious downward spiral. I was completely out of touch with my body and its needs. I thought that to be loved and accepted I needed to look a certain way and I never felt like I was good enough or deserving of
My relationship with myself was broken. I had very low self-esteem and focused all of my energy and attention on trying to “fix myself” from the outside. I looked up to celebrities and models and thought that if I could just look like them then I would be truly happy… only then will I love and accept myself.
I was completely obsessed with dieting. I had folders filled with diet articles from trashy gossip magazines and I read them constantly. I became highly restrictive with my food and recorded every single thing I ate, everyday in a journal. I deprived my body and got to a point where I absolutely
hated food and anyone who tried to get me to eat became the enemy.
I weighed myself morning and night and took all of my measurements weekly. I saw exercise as a tool for punishment. If I ate 11 almonds instead of 10 during the day I’d have a wave of guilt and self-loathing wash over me. I was convinced that the only way to get back on track was to make myself do
at least 100 sit-ups and eat even less the following day.
My confidence hit rock bottom and because of this I found myself in a series of very unhappy, toxic relationships that caused even more damage to my self-esteem. I would love to say that this was just a short stage I went through, a momentary phase in my life but tragically this all went on over years and years, starting in my early teens, around the age of 13, right up until I was in my early 20’s.
What lead me to search for wellness…
My body in its innate wisdom, very lovingly started sending out signals to me in an attempt to show me that internally things were totally out of balance. I was literally fighting against my own body. My weight was up and down, stress and anxiety manifested in the form of breakouts on my skin. I
struggled to concentrate in class because I was so tired and dizzy. I suffered with terrible allergies everyday and was sick far too often and for way too long. There were so many signs that my health was suffering and I ignored every single one of them…So my body started screaming out!
My hormones were completely out of wack. I was highly sensitive and emotional and being hungry all of the time only added to my teenage mood swings and I affectionately got the title of ‘The Drama Queen’ at home. After not having a period for 9 months my Mom took me to the doctors and I was
diagnosed with PCOS. I was told to take the contraceptive pill to “fix” the issue but little did I know I was only disrupting my inner ecosystem even further. I put on weight, suffered from digestive issues and became highly sensitive to many foods. I became gluten and dairy intolerant and discovered that I had a “leaky gut” causing digestive discomfort and bloating.
I was very unhappy and allowed myself to feel trapped in a very unhealthy relationship for too long. I was at breaking point and one day during a conversation with a very close friend of mine I finally had my breakthrough moment.
My friend simply asked me, “Kat, are you happy?”
It was one of those moments that really caught me off guard and I suddenly felt very vulnerable. I thought about it for a minute and my eyes filled with tears, my throat tightened and all I managed to respond with was “Ummm…”
She didn’t say anything for a minute and then my gorgeous friend very lovingly said “Well, there you go, that’s your answer”.
It was in this exact moment I realised that I needed to start making some major lifestyle changes and for the first time in a very long time I started tuning in to what my body really needed.
How I healed my body, mind and spirit…
I finally started listening to my body and decided to take a natural, holistic approach to my healing process. I realised that I was getting nowhere trying to fix myself from the outside so I started doing some serious internal work. I stoped dieting and started eating real, wholefoods that would nourish my body. I stoped punishing myself with exercise and instead started moving my body in ways that actually felt good.
I let go of toxic relationships and started working on repairing my relationship with myself. During the time when I was really struggling with my body image it didn’t matter how many times my loving parents would tell me I was beautiful or smart, I just couldn’t see it. It didn’t make a difference to the way I saw myself because I had to learn to accept and love myself first and once I did I can tell you it was the most wonderful, freeing feeling ever!
After a bit of time my body began to heal and find it’s natural rhythm and balance again. I was no longer fighting against myself, instead I felt harmony and peace. My daily life wasn’t such a struggle anymore and I took on an attitude of positivity. I started to really appreciate the small things that brightened up my day. I became much more gentle in my approach towards my body and felt grateful for my health.
I learnt that health is a journey, not a destination. Honestly, I still have a long way to go on my healing journey and I know I will continue to learn even more and grow further each and every day. Even though it wasn’t a whole lot of fun at the time I am so grateful for every one of the challenges that I’ve faced. I’ve learnt so much from these experiences and I know they were put on my path to strengthen me and ultimately bring me to where I am today.
So now you’ve got a bit of an idea of where I’m coming from beautiful. It was a very dark place for me for a long time and there were many times where I thought I would never be able to overcome those struggles but I did and trust me, if I can do it, so can you babe!
Why I am so passionate and excited about supporting you on your very own journey…
When I started on my health journey I discovered so many amazing resources that really helped me to turn my life around and now I want to share that knowledge with you. My mantra is to educate, inspire and encourage you to be the best version of yourself possible. After years of struggling with
these issues myself I can completely relate to how it feels so I want to be here to love you up and support you on your very own path to wellness.
So gorgeous if something in this article touched your heart or spoke to your soul then I encourage you to share it with a girlfriend. You just never know what story she is telling herself and what kind of an impact this could have on her life! Love Kat
P.s – I’d love to hear your story, if you feel inspired to share it on your Facebook or Instagram
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